Nineteen and counting…

“Unto thee, O Lord, do I lift up my soul. O my God, I trust in thee; let me not be ashamed, let not mine enemies triumph over me.

Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed; let them be ashamed which transgress without cause.

Shew me thy ways, O Lord; teach me thy paths. Lead me in thy truth, and teach me: for thou art the God of my salvation; on thee do I wait all the day.

Remember, O Lord, thy tendermercies and thy lovingkindness; for they have been ever of old.

Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions: according to thy mercy remember thou me for thy goodness’ sake, O Lord.

Good and upright is the Lord: therefore he will teach sinners in the way.

The meek will he guide in judgment (justice): and the meek he will teach his way. All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies.

For thy name’s sake, O Lord, pardon mine iniquity: for it is great.

What man is that heareth the Lord? him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose. His soul shall dwell at ease; and his seed shall inherit the earth.

The secret of the Lord is with them that fear him; and he will shew them his covenant; Mine eyes are ever toward the Lord; for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.

Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me; for I am desolate and afflicted. The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.

Look upon mine afflictions and my pain; and forgive all my sins.

Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with a cruel hatred.

O keep my soul, and deliver me; let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.

Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait upon thee. Redeem Israel, O God, out of all his troubles.”                                       Psalm 25

That is the second set of scripture I ever tried to memorize, I am still not really good at memorizing them but I can quote a few of them verbatim.

But Psalm 25 will also be special and especially on this day.

Nineteen years and hopefully counting since the first time I ever read those words and nineteen years since I fully understood that God really is there and He really does hear us and that He  really  will move heaven and earth to save us and meet us on our terms, no matter where we are, what condition we are in.

When we ask and seek, He really will come to us, just like His word says that He will.

We don’t have to be in a church house or have a fancy person praying for us, all we have to do is ask.

And He does it not because of anything we have done, will do, or ever could do, because our righteousness is as filthy rags, just like the Bible says, He does it because He is God and He wants to save us.

have failed Him many times along the way, many mistakes and things I wish I could do completely different and choices I wish I could go back and make all over again and maybe make the “right” ones with retrospect to guide me.

But that is one of the many beauties of God, He is a God of new days dawning and those new days begin each and every day.

That I am trying to bear in my mind for this new chapter in my life, forget chapter, this baby may as well be a whole new book, with the loss of My Mom and my sister my whole world and prospective of that world has changed, and I am painfully aware that the outcomes and happiness I experience in that new world will be dependent on the Lord guiding me and how I choose to view that new world.

And I can’t make it through this day without thanking Him for saving me and even though they aren’t here now, I still have to thank Mom and Ruby, (although I did always try to truly let them know how much I appreciated them)

Ruby did not stop until she got her “heathen baby sister” saved, from buying my Valentine’s day Bible to praying constantly for me and finally when I was ready, praying the Lord’s prayer simultaneously with me on the phone, as I wanted to “learn” how to pray aloud.

She went to church with me and explained things to me and I was so scared and timid when I first started out that I would literally shake when they asked me to testify.

When I was called into ministry, her and Mom kept encouraging me and praying for me, constantly reminding me that no matter how many doors slammed in face, or pastor’s treated me like I had the plague, that God would make a way and He has through this.

They were not “just” family, they were awesome on that count also, but they were the sweetest, kindness, prayer warriors and prayer partners anyone could have ever been blessed with, and I miss them so much and especially today.

As painful that journey has been and as painful this season has been, one thing remains, God is sovereign and although life changes and life hurts, there are always going to be times of tears, but there will also been times of joy and peace, laughter, and new beginnings and in time and in His time, He does deliver us from those enemies and He does deliver us out of those distresses and “He make all things beautiful in HIS time”.

If you have never accepted Jesus as your Savior, please consider doing that today!

You will not regret it and this could be the dawning of your brand new, “new every day” day!

Thanks for reading! God bless you with love & peace!

Nothing like these old photos, this one is one of my favorites. Despite the quality they are priceless.


Mom, Ruby, & Me and in my heart they will forever be.