Making it through the night……

“But the ship was now in the midst of the sea, TOSSED with waves: for the WIND was contrary. And in the fourth watch of the night (the blackest, darkest hour)  JESUS WENT UNTO THEM, WALKING ON THE SEA.”
And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they CRIED OUT FOR (because of) FEAR.
But STRAIGHTWAY (Immediately) JESUS SPAKE unto them, saying, BE OF GOOD CHEER (have courage) IT IS I ( I AM ); BE NOT AFRAID.” Matthew 14:25-27
Through the journey of this life many times we find that we are that ship, the waves crashing and tossing us about, unable to catch balance tossed with that horrible great wind that is blowing down on us in the worst possible hour.
The fourth watch, when we have been tossed by the raging waves of trails of life and circumstances that we have no control over.
Trails and troubles that comes just as a part of this life for us and for all others.
But when you add that horrid wind, that cold, fierce blowing of the fury of the enemy, because he loves to kick you when your down and it is always during last stretch of the night.
He thinks of it as this, you are already weak, tired, and completely exhausted, just worn out from the hours you have already battled through the dark and he knows if he can get you to lose focus that this night is never going to end, he will destroy your faith in God.
Notice Jesus came in that hour, Jesus knew where they were, he knew what they were battling and he knew at what point they would break IF he did not step in.
Being in an exhaustive state it is hard to see whose hand is whose and this was Jesus coming to their rescue but they were so mentally drained that they were afraid that he too was more trouble headed their way.
When they cried out (as we cry out to Him) it was then that he said IT IS I, and encouraged their faith.
Peter was so distraught, he needed reassurance, just as we too sometimes need to know that He is aware of what we are going through, that He really is there, and that He really is going to take us through the night.
“And Peter answered and him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me to come to thee on the water.
And he said, Come, And when Peter was down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
BUT when he SAW THE WIND boisterous (violent) HE WAS AFRAID, he cried, saying 
Lord, SAVE ME.” Matthew 14:28-30

Jesus had given him that reassurance that he was aware and was completely on the scene, and at 
the comforting voice of his Lord he began to walk on those horrible waves that had held him as their terrorized prisoner only moments earlier. 
In life, we sometimes feel like we can’t catch a break.
We think we see the shimmer of the morning starting to break through and then the darkness
only returns with even more blackness and wind howling.
We feel like as soon as things are finally looking up something happens and it all crashes in on us.

“And IMMEDIATELY JESUS STRETCHED FORTH HIS HAND, AND CAUGHT HIM, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, Wherefore didst thou ( why did you) doubt?
And when they were come into the ship, THE WIND CEASED.” Matthew 14:28-30

So many troubled waters, waves of sickness, waves of financial woes, waves of worry about our children and their futures, waves of family issues, the winds of past hurts and unresolved heartaches and the stone cold blow of lack of closure to doors of the past. It all rocks, it tosses, and that wind will blow. 
But Jesus came through in that darkest most tempestuous hour,  even though they thought they couldn’t make it, HE KNEW when they couldn’t and by allowing Peter to walk on those waves, he was really showing him something.
People are so mean about Peter, they are always pointing out the fact that he temporarily slipped, but how many of them have ever been in Peter’s sandals?
We can look at others and think well, this or that, but until we have truly, truly been in their shoes we don’t know how we would react, but Jesus does and he knows what we can handle has nothing to do with what we FEEL like we can handle.
Storms to weather, giants to fight, crosses to bear, and no one likes it. I have yet to meet a Christian who jumps up in Church and shouts “Woo, hoo bring on the storm!”
I have fought some hellacious giants, there are battles that I am not sure that I will win in this earth but I know if I hold on and keep the faith, that even if it is at the feet of the Lord in New Jerusalem that the battle will have been won.
There have been times when warnings to church has come that storms were brewing and I’d be like, please, please no, no more storms.
We all go through it and some are worse than others and there is always someone else whose storm makes ours look like a sunny morn.
I never will forget the testimony of a certain preacher, I love to hear him, he straight shoots, preaches hell, fire, brimstone, mingled with love and compassion and all with a comedic edge that can make you dig where he is coming from without making you want to hide under the pew.
He often made remarks about his childhood that confused me, because his Mom is an awesome woman and I couldn’t figure out how all this happened to him. 
One night he told us what God had brought him from, he had been born to stoned parents who had a house full of kids, and kept having kids, he told us about watching his baby sibling die, believing the baby may have frozen to death because there was a hole in the ceiling with snow actually falling in, and he kept a crew cut all the time and had a very visible scar on his head, he went on to tell us that he received that after opening a can of food without permission and being hit with the still attached to the can, jagged top.
When he and his siblings rescue came, he was eleven and his Mom later told me that he was barely dressed and wearing a ladies top.
And to know him now and to know that God stepped in and changed this child’s life and fulfilled HIS PURPOSE for him, placing him with a good family that would teach him of a God that loved him despite what that horrible storm he had lived in for eleven years had tried to convince him of.
Don’t try to wait out the storm to pursue the things of God for your life.
The young man who asked Jesus if he could “bury his father” before following him was answered by “Let the dead bury their dead; but go thou and preach the kingdom of God.”
It will not always easy, but sometimes we have to stop fighting with things that are dead, and trying to change things that will never be changed, and accept them as such, and go on in our walk with the Lord. 
Sometimes we have to take what we have and work with it, even if we think we are lacking what we “need” to get the job done.
In the story of Elisha, we are introduced to him as he is plowing a field having only eleven oxen, now we know that can’t be done and that is why we are told that HE HIMSELF IS THE TWELFTH OXEN!
Field needed plowed, he needed an ox, so he did what had to be done.
He could have said well, whenever we get another ox, I’ll take care of that field, but he didn’t.
So the giant you face is monstrous, the cross is growing might heavy, and that wind is threatening to smash your ship to smithereens, BUT JESUS IS RIGHT THERE.
He will slay that giant, He will give you His strength to make that cross lighter to bear, and He will lead you BACK TO SAFETY AND THAT STORM WILL CEASE.
Morning will come breaking through and at the end of it all, that little ship will be stronger, having weathered that dreaded storm, it will now be a proven sea worthy vessel, those giants won’t look quite so tall when you know the hand that is stretching out to catch you is the hand that controls it all.
Just so someone out there will know, this is NOT what I had planned for today, and He showed me things in this I had never noticed and I feel his presence with it, I will never pretend to know your pain or tell you life will be great, but one day the storm will pass and maybe sooner than you know!
I want to leave you with this, quote it, memorize and keep it to your heart:
Psalm 56:3 : “WHAT TIME I AM AFRAID, I WILL TRUST IN THEE.”

May God bless you and keep you, in Jesus’ name. Amen.
Φλογιζω/ all rights reserved. NBJ/2015

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PARKING LOT PERPLEXITY- PONDERING PERCEPTION

I spend an unnatural amount of time in the parking lot of a local store.
That sounds like some kind of bizarre plea for help doesn’t it?
“Hi, I’m Nina and I like to spend my free time in this parking lot”!
Wouldn’t make me too many new friends but I have a really good reason for being outside rather than inside, and since we all have issues, this is one of mine, I could easily play the part of the lady in the commercial, you know the one where she is bowling and this cute little pink thing with big blue eyes keeps trying to drag her off to the restroom, finally she angrily declares “No! I am seeing my doctor!”.
Well, me and my bladder just hang out rather than suffer the nuisance and annoyance of having to find a restroom every three hundred feet.
That is my personal secret revealed for the day.
 Disturbing? Probably! Too much information? Surely! Needed to be divulged in order to write this post? Most definitely!
I had to tell you that so that you wouldn’t think I am just all kinds of weird (those who know me are now falling over laughing hysterically thinking BUT YOU ARE WEIRD!)
That point aside. I have learned a lot sitting there and watching shoppers and I always think about them and what their life is like and if they look weary, tired, or hurting, I always say a little prayer for them.
 I watch people interact with their kids and I watch the elderly go in and I wonder do they have enough food money.
And amazingly enough the majority of my posts have been birthed there, most of my series titles and scriptures have been jotted down while sitting in that parking lot and the death of “Eagle” hit me there and I sat and cried scribbling it all down as my family returned to try to understand why on earth I was crying.
So I think I have a special kind relationship with that place and the most astounding thought that I have taken from it is this, WE AS HUMANS, AS A MAJORITY SUFFER FROM THE TOTAL LACK OF PERCEPTION!
My view varies based on parking, and across the street in one direction is what was once upon a more prosperous time THE motel of the town, it has since became not quite so much so.
I think it is mainly rented out as housing and often I watch those that live there come and go from the grocery store.
One evening a couple had just came out and were trying to cross the road they were dressed very modestly and NO ONE would stop to offer them to cross the road and the more I watched, I could only think that maybe if they were dressed to the nines or in fine clothing, or were well-known people, like I don’t know a mayor, or doctor or someone of the sort, people would be glad to let them cross, but no, drivers felt it not worth their time to show kindness to this couple.
The other side facing the store, right in front of it, I have had the grandest of all pondering.
There is a local man,seen by many, but I am sure known by few if any.
He is for the most part mute, he is so sweet and the kindness oozes out of him, he is an older man and lives in an assisted living home just a tad to the side of the grocery, and he can communicate IF you are willing to listen with your HEART and not depend so much on ears.
So Me and Pinky, (the cartoon bladder) are once again sitting there ( because I had determined I AM NOT going to the bathroom AGAIN ) and the sweet man is out there and we wave at each other and he flashes me that sweet smile and there are several shopping carts haphazardly left here and there on the walk, so he gets them one by one and takes them back in the store and puts them in their place, he comes back and picks up some loose trash and throws it away, he then steps just inside the store to a little rack where I am so sure are the “Thrifty Nickel” or something to that effect, it is little papers that people run ads for anything imaginable to sale, I think they are actually free BUT if not some witty, knowledgeable store employee SHOULD KNOW THE PRICE ( but I guess that depends on who is trying to ask! )
He holds it up and shows it to a bag boy, who just looks zombified at the paper, as if it is a mysterious sphere floating down before him and shrugs and walks off, then the man turns to a cashier, who is obviously also brain-dead to the universal code language
 ( HELLO if you are holding it up, you want to know the price) and she brushes him off also, and he just puts it down, that beautiful smile has now faded and he walks silently away to the place he calls home.
So between pinky pulling my arm and these two geniuses I am growing a wee angry.
 Curlylocks is still outside after having ran away to avoid the man’s unspoken question,( never bothering to notice that the carts had been taken care of for HIM ) so I call him to my window and as gently and clearly as possible I said “He is asking you how much that paper is.” 
Curlylocks looks at me, by this point I have come to believe the dude may not really be a bag boy but is actually zombie doing a rather bad impersonation of a bag boy, he just says”Umm, I don’t know” and I just say “Okay” . 
By this point, I really kinda wanted to slap him upside his head and say “You know Sonny, you ain’t through living and one day that might just be you!”
Then I wanted to slap my own self! Why did I not just drag pinky out of the vehicle, tell the sweet man to hold on one minute, go buy the paper, give to him! I COULD HAVE DONE THAT!!!!
So now we have three geniuses! What is wrong with us as a society?
Why can we not hear what others are saying, even if they have no words?
Why do we hold to the old cop-out that if they needed anything THEY would ask, if they had a problem they would tell someone.
Why do we not listen with our hearts and be led by the spirit? When we look someone in the eye and that little tug inside of us tells us they have a need, why do we not ask? 
Why do we not care? Why will not go even an inch outside our zone to help another person?
How many chances have been missed to impact a life other than our own?
This did not happen in a parking lot but I have pondered it more than once, because it leaps to mind when I think of these things, so it belongs here.
My family has a friend that grew up with my parents, she is a wonderful woman and has dedicated her life to two people, Jesus, and raising her little grand-daughter, she is in her seventies and she called one evening and needed help, her back was hurting really badly and thought it was caused by her stomach, so me and my Dad took her to the ER, she was left for hours in a freezing cold room, when we did go back to see her, she said she was freezing so I asked for a blanket for her (which should have been offered ) and she told us that she had a broken back.
She had been doing yard work that week and had somehow slipped or something and didn’t think much of it but had actually broken her back.
She told me she needed to go the restroom and had mentioned that the nurses had been really rude to her, so I told her I’d go get someone.
Now this is around five in the morning, we had been there all night, ( They are in process of transferring her to another hospital better equipped for her injury) so I go to the desk, there’s the doctor and three of four nurses sitting around and I ask could someone please come help her to the bathroom, This young nurse just looks at me and says “Well, I’ve took her several times” (Yeah, there is obviously a limit on times one may need to go) I said “Well, she needs to go”  she just looks at the doctor and rolls her eyes and he said “Take her” she gets up, her nasty little attitude plain to see and I said “You do know that HER BACK IS BROKEN don’t you?”
She just looks at me and like nothing and almost smugly says “Yeah, I know” and it took everything in me not to say “Well, here’s the deal, one day this is going to come back and bite you so hard in your prissy little butt, one day you will be in her shoes.” 
But as a child of the Lord’s, I held my peace but it was hard, she was so smug, so smirky, so absolutely uncaring and cold that I truly would not want to be in her shoes, if that is how she chooses to treat wounded people she should have never became a nurse, she should not be allowed to care for a rock.
But it does beg the question, what happened to us? When did we grow so insensitive, so lacking as a society?
Well, I am sure it happened as we fell as a nation from the grace of God and without his presence and guidance THAT IS what happens to society and it is the biblical fulfillment of what is to become of people.
“Without natural affection”, lacking any common decency or courtesy, much less compassion toward our fellow human.
BUT more so as Christians we ARE to be the LIGHT in the darkness.
WE are to shine into this world and be different and to do that and to not fall victim to the infectious lack of caring and love growing cold, we must be aware of what is inside of us.
Jesus IS the master of perception! And of course HE IS WHO HE IS but as his children WE CAN PRAY for HIS PERCEPTION to be awake and alive in us.
People really didn’t have to tell him much,when he walked this earth he was so in tune to people he took it straight to the heart, he didn’t make them pour out their secrets, or wait till they begged for help, he addressed the problem and assured help was on the spot.
More often the people who need help the most are the ones who are LEAST likely to ask.
NO ONE WANTS TO FEEL EMBARRASSED  and shame has NO PLACE but satan sends it and if you are lead of God to help in a charitable way, keep it secret! 
AS much as you possibly can, again because NO ONE wants to feel embarrassed and calling attention to their plight and what you did to help will only embarrass them and make them feel worse than they would have if you had left them alone.
“Take heed that ye do not your alms (charitable deeds) before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.
Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee as thee hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men, Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.”          Matthew 6:1,2
So we never want to come off that way! Here’s what we want:
“But when thou doest thine alms, LET NOT THY LEFT HAND KNOW WHAT THY RIGHT HAND DOETH: that thine alms MAY BE IN SECRET: and THE FATHER SEETH IN SECRET HIMSELF SHALL REWARD THEE OPENLY”   Matthew 6:3,4
“Give to every man that asketh of thee; and of him that taketh away thy goods ask not again.
And as ye would that men should do to you, do ye also to them likewise.
For if ye love them which love you, what thank (credit) have ye?
for sinners also do even the same.
And if you do good to them which do good to you, what thank (credit) have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, TO RECEIVE AS MUCH AGAIN.                 Luke 6:30-34
“Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father  also IS merciful.”
“GIVE, and it SHALL BE GIVEN UNTO YOU; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give unto your bosom. FOR WITH THE SAME MEASURE THAT YE METE (use)  withal it will be measured BACK UNTO YOU again.”                               Luke 6:36,38
So lets all do better, let’s make eye contact, pray for that perception and TAKE CHANCES and ASK when we feel someone has a need and remember this isn’t always about money, it can be many things, even just someone who will listen for a moment and a little help getting something off a store shelf.
And if they say “No, Thanks” what have you lost???? You have offered and God is still very pleased with that!
 But let’s please not continue to look through people as if they aren’t even there and never, ever over them, like what happened with the sweet man, when his disability was such a burden to others that they would not even TRY to understand him, and someone other than you and me sees it.

He sees it all, so let’s make sure what he sees is us being the best we can be.
Φλογιζω/ All rights reserved/ NBJ 2015



DOUBLE -EDGED PART 4 UNBRIDLED / LOVES ULTIMATE JUSTIFICATION

Picture it, you are walking down the street and you witness an elderly man with a cane lose his balance and fall to the ground, the man next to him, whom you fully expect to gently help him back on his feet instead starts cursing him, kicking him the ribs demanding that he get up, yelling the entire time to as the elderly man who is now crying, trying to raise himself up under the sharp kicks, the young mans angry voice bellows through the night, “YOU are such an embarrassment! YOU can’t even walk right!” He goes on to tell the elderly man that he is nothing but a burden and asking him why doesn’t he just die, the elderly man shaking and crying manages to get up and regain his step and obediently replies “I’m sorry, Son.”
Picture the things we as human never see, picture the horrors that go on behind closed doors and in nursing homes, and mental health institutions, all the unthinkable abuse and all the soul destructive words that are spoken.
Picture all at once, all of the dreadful news stories that have haunted your thoughts and now think about just how many you have never heard because they have never been told because as of yet no one knows.
Just how mad does it make you? 
How bad does it hurt YOUR soul? 
What would you do if you were able to stop this and so much more.
Could you turn your eyes from the mothers who are crying because they are watching their children literally starve to death?
Could you turn your eyes from those imprisoned and those sold into slavery for the sick perversion of some and the greed of many?
Could you turn your eyes from those who were crying out for justice for the atrocities they experience everyday as life?
PROVERBS 15:3 : 
“The EYES OF THE LORD are in every place, BEHOLDING THE EVIL AND THE GOOD.”
Knowing in yourself the anger, hurt, and bewilderment you as a human feel when faced with these issues.
 How do you think HE FEELS?
We determined that HE IS gentle, mild, beautiful, Holy, and merciful to the point of dying to save mankind.
Remember HE sees what you can’t and HE sees the ENTIRE WORLD, but HE ALSO HEARS the cries of them all!

Psalm 34:15: 
The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and HIS EARS ARE OPEN UNTO THEIR CRY.”
Since the dawn of time people have asked the question of how can He destroy the world?
How can He bring judgment and wrath and an absolute annihilation of what is now the world as we know it?
Well, let me ask you, How can He not?
The only reason He hasn’t is out of mercy, to give the lost a little more time.
2 PETER 3:9,10: 
The Lord  is not slack concerning his promise ( to return and judge the earth) as some men count slackness;
BUT IS LONG SUFFERING US WARD (TOWARD US) NOT WILLING THAT ANY SHOULD PERISH, BUT THAT ALL SHOULD COME TO REPENTANCE.
BUT the day of the Lord WILL come as a  thief in the night: IN which the heavens shall PASS AWAY WITH A GREAT NOISE, AND THE ELEMENTS SHALL MELT WITH FERVENT HEAT,
the EARTH also and the works that are therein SHALL BE BURNED UP.”
People use every reason in the book to avoid salvation, but here is the reality, while they slow poke around, He is being patient in His return for their sake’s and in the meantime those who suffer are forgotten by those who are just self-willed and stout-hearted against him.
The day is soon coming that HIS MERCY will flood this earth IN DIVINE WRATH.
Because HE IS merciful, those who have accepted Him will be taken out-of-the-way.
Those who are left can accept Christ, refuse the mark of the beast and be beheaded, again one more chance out, because of mercy.
Saved or not,  those in Babylon at the time of its destruction will be as the cut trees that fall where they are, as they are, no notice, no warning, what it is, is what it will be and no one knows that answer, but we do know through God’s word it will happen.
The money preachers and gurus are forever on their sowing in and finding favor kicks.
But I’ll tell you a little secret THERE IS NOTHING, AND I MEAN NOTHING ON THIS EARTH YOU WANT TO SOW IN RIGHT NOW MORE THAN MERCY!
Show mercy in every possible area that you can because to make it we will need shown much mercy.
HOSEA 6:6:
 “FOR I DESIRED MERCY, and NOT SACRIFICE; and knowledge of God more than burnt offerings.

PSALM 89:14:  “JUSTICE and JUDGMENT
ARE the habitation (FOUNDATION)
of THY THRONE: MERCY and TRUTH SHALL GO BEFORE THY FACE.”
PSALM 18:25-28,30: 
“With the MERCIFUL thou wilt shew thyself MERCIFUL; with the upright man thou wilt shew thyself upright.
With the PURE IN HEART thou wilt shew thyself PURE; AND WITH THE FROWARD (DEVIOUS) THOU WILT SHEW THYSELF FROWARD (SHREWD).
For thou wilt SAVE THE AFFLICTED PEOPLE; BUT WILL BRING DOWN HIGH LOOKS (THE HAUGHTY).
For thou wilt light my candle: the Lord my God will lighten my darkness.
As for God, HIS WAY IS PERFECT: the WORD of the Lord is tried (proven): HE IS A BUCKLER (SHIELD) to ALL WHOM TRUST IN HIM.”
So you see IT IS His love that will rescue them, save them, and above all forever deliver them from evil.
Don’t ask why he doesn’t just change the evil people, HE gives everyone that choice.
HE only offers freewill, either do good or choose to do evil, THEY have chosen evil over good.
HE WILL SAVE THOSE WHO CRY UNTO HIM.

ISAIAH 40: 10,11:
BEHOLD, the Lord God WILL COME
with strong hand (strength), and his arm shall rule for him: BEHOLD, his reward IS WITH HIM, AND HIS WORK IS BEFORE HIM.
HE SHALL FEED HIS FLOCK LIKE A SHEPHERD: HE SHALL GATHER THE LAMBS WITH HIS ARM, AND CARRY THEM IN HIS BOSOM, AND SHALL GENTLY LEAD THOSE THAT ARE WITH YOUNG.”

PSALM 72:4-9,11-14:
He shall judge (BRING JUSTICE ON THEIR BEHALF) the poor of the people, HE SHALL SAVE THE CHILDREN of the needy, and BREAK INTO PIECES THE OPPRESSOR ( utterly destroy the ones who have hurt them).
They shall fear thee as long as the sun and moon endure, throughout all generations.
HE SHALL COME down like rain upon the mown grass; as shower that water the earth.
In HIS days shall the righteous flourish; and the abundance of peace so long as the moon endureth.
HE SHALL have dominion also from sea to sea, and from river to river unto the ends of the earth.
They that dwell in the wilderness shall bow before him; AND HIS ENEMIES SHALL LICK THE DUST.
YEA, ALL KINGS SHALL FALL DOWN BEFORE HIM; ALL NATIONS SHALL SERVE HIM.
FOR HE SHALL DELIVER THE NEEDY WHEN HE CRIETH; THE POOR ALSO, AND HIM THAT HATH NO HELPER.
HE SHALL SPARE THE POOR AND NEEDY, AND SHALL SAVE THE SOULS OF THE NEEDY.
HE SHALL REDEEM THEIR SOUL (LIFE) FROM DECEIT (OPPRESSION)
AND PRECIOUS SHALL THEIR BLOOD BE IN HIS SIGHT.”
His perfect, righteous judgment and justice, saving those who need it and ending forever what we on earth can’t, the reason for the bodies from one end of earth to the other..they have shown no mercy.
JAMES 2:13:
 FOR HE SHALL HAVE JUDGMENT WITHOUT MERCY, THAT SHEWTH NO MERCY; and MERCY REJOICETH AGAINST (TRIUMPHS OVER ) JUDGMENT.”
Φλογιζω / All Rights Reserved/ NBJ 2015




DOUBLE-EDGED PART 3 / LOVESICK….

As the love saga in the Book of Solomon plays out we find that the couple are madly in love, the common thread that weaves the story is her proclamation that “His left hand is under my head, and his right hand doth embrace me” now that is pretty close, the left hand being the tenderness and gentleness and the right hand in reference to the protection and justice of God, she is completely covered.

As we know she get to comfy and refuses to answer his call and once she does decide to drag herself out of bed, he’s gone.
 Now the embrace that was becomes the embrace that should be, she is no longer in his arms, she is no longer under his protection.
Desperate to get him back, she frantically runs through the city, and as compared to back slidden states and the rude awakening of the lukewarm, sleeping church, in the frenzied hunt she is wounded, she is hurt, and her dignity is taken away but she doesn’t give up.
As lovers often do, she begs her friends to please relay a message if they were to run into him and she is met with the question that we as believers are often met with:
Song of Solomon 4:7-9
“The watchmen that went about the city found me, they smote (struck) me, they wounded me, the keepers of the walls took my veil from me.
I charge (beg) you, O daughters of Jerusalem
If you find my beloved, THAT YE TELL HIM, that I AM SICK OF LOVE (lovesick).
Her friends reply: “ WHAT IS THY BELOVED MORE THAN ANOTHER BELOVED?……..
What was it about him again? What was it that made her proclaim ” Draw me, we will run after thee”…
Our main thought from part two, so what does that mean, well we need a reason, something that we desire that propels us to “press toward the mark.” So how does he draw us, what is it about him that makes us follow?

Hosea 11:5
I DREW THEM WITH CORDS of a man (gentle cords), WITH BANDS OF LOVE;
I was to them as they  that take off the yoke on their jaws (heavy burdens off their neck), and I laid meat unto them (STOOPED AND FED THEM)
His Mercy, His Grace, but as He himself stated, His gentleness, coming down to care for us.
Psalm 85:10: 
“Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other”
His mercy meeting us in our sin stricken state and the truth of his love and forgiveness washing us white as snow, right standing and peace of God, peace in God, and the peace of God forming a beautiful union.
Psalm 18:35:
“Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath holden (held) me up, AND THY GENTLENESS HATH MADE ME GREAT (victorious).”
Matthew 11:29: “Take MY yoke upon you, and learn of  (from) me; for I AM meek and lowly in heart (gentle and humble) ; and ye shall find rest unto your souls.”
So when did she find him? We’ll get his answer:
Jeremiah 29:13
” And  ye shall SEEK ME, and FIND ME,WHEN YE SHALL SEARCH FOR ME WITH ALL YOUR HEART.”
I  so totally wanted to end that with an exclamation point but…. I don’t want in trouble!
But as we wrap this up please hold onto that thought, remember that love, that drew you to him and rekindle that flame, remember who HE IS.
 He draws us with his gentleness and that love. 
 Next time we’ll see why that love, that mercy, and above all that gentleness that forgives, that saves, and heals also turns to the other side of that double-edged sword.
 It will bring justice, judgment, and unimaginable horror beyond human comprehension to this earth.
Without the understanding of that love and being embraced in that love and without the acceptance of his will and our place in the midst of it all, we will lose that love and that love and that love alone is all that can keep us through these days.
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DOUBLE-EDGED PART 2 / FANNING THE FLAME…..

“Because of the savour (fragrance) of thy good ointments THY NAME (JESUS) IS AS A OINTMENT (healing balm) POURED FORTH, therefore do the virgins love thee.
DRAW ME ( lead me away ) we WILL RUN AFTER THEE (GOD): The KING hath BROUGHT me INTO HIS chambers: We WILL be glad and REJOICE in thee (GOD), WE WILL REMEMBER THY LOVE MORE THAN WINE: the upright love thee (BEING RIGHT IN OUR LOVE FOR YOU).”
Song of Solomon:1:3-4

Now to unravel that, I always like to point out to NEVER EVER read the commentaries on this book! 
It is compared to Solomon and his Shulamite lady, but they are so wrong!
 It is not about the kind of relationship they like to carnally compare it to.
It is the relationship between Jesus and His church (The Bride).
I still love this, I am actually called to specifically the book of Revelation but I love Solomon and I am so thankful to Him for allowing me the work in it that he does because as I said before women WERE NOT ALLOWED TO READ THIS BOOK!
That is the problem, that is what we must overcome to really get this, they thought women would become too “flustered” if they were to read the descriptive passage of a soul entwining love that left one so helpless desiring to breathe the very breath of the other,a love so strong, that “it is strong as death, the jealousy (desire to keep and protect the love of that relationship) is a cruel as the grave: the fire thereof ARE coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame.”
Jesus came here as a man BUT he was completely innocence, completely sinless and HE NEVER HAD, NOR WILL EVER HAVE the kind of relations that humans do!
But IT IS  the grandest, most romantic
 love story that has ever been or ever will be written.
 IT IS the spiritual love story between Christ and the church.
Once we have been brought into His house of feasting and tasted spiritually the things of God, we can no longer help but to run after him.
 The virgins ( hearts spiritually pure to Him) seek only to be one more moment in His presence, completely overshadowed and overcame by Him and all that He is, which is indescribable, but will of a certainty melt your knees from under you and leave you  blew completely away that to mirror the verse “turn away thine eyes from me, for they have overcame (overwhelmed) me.”
 Translation if He were to physically manifest to match his spiritual manifestation, you would be unable to make eye contact because of the sheer majesty and awe of what you had just experienced.
But don’t take my word for it, especially since a certain “anonymous” group wants to make me their poster child because they think we are all sick and need help, but I know just how real He is and I know that love, and I know one word from Him and my soul will melt at His will, because I adore Him and His wish is my command, He owns me completely and I want Him too, what really gets you is His overwhelming humility and gentleness.
 How could you expect the God of the universe to meet you in your pain and cover you with pure love in such an unexpected way?
How can He come down to mere mortals and dry their tears and silence their cries and assure them that His love heals all and they are in His garden, no matter what the world or others may say.
How can He hold the world in His hand and yet know the very hair on our heads and our today from our tomorrow, and our first breath from our last?
How can he possibly form us in our Mother’s womb, watch us as we struggle to find our way and then when we have returned to Him never question us as to why it took so long, only welcome us with arms open wide and love as strong?
1 Samuel 2:1-10
“And Hannah prayed and said, My heart rejoiced in the Lord, mine horn ( my strength) is exalted in the Lord: my mouth is enlarged (smiles at) over mine enemies;
BECAUSE I rejoice in thy (your) salvation,
THERE IS NONE HOLY AS THE LORD: FOR THERE IS NONE BESIDE THEE: NEITHER IS THERE ANY ROCK LIKE OUR GOD.
Talk no more so exceedingly proudly; let NOT arrogancy come out of your mouth; For the Lord IS a God of knowledge and by him actions are weighed.
The bows of the mighty men are broken; and they that stumbled ARE GIRDED WITH STRENGTH.
They that were full have hired themselves out for bread; and they that were hungry ceased ( hunger no more); so that the barren hath born seven; and she that hath born seven is waxed (grown) feeble.
The Lord killeth, and maketh alive: HE BRINGETH DOWN TO THE GRAVE, AND BRINGETH UP.
The lord maketh poor, and maketh rich; he bringeth low, and lifteth up.
He raiseth up the poor out of the dust, and lifteth up the beggar from the dunghill, TO SET them among princes, AND TO MAKE THEM INHERIT THE THRONE OF GLORY: for the pillars of the earth ARE THE LORD’S, and he hath set the world upon them.
HE WILL keep the feet of his saints, and the wicked shall be silent in darkness; for BY STRENGTH SHALL NO MAN PREVAIL.
THE ADVERSARIES OF THE LORD SHALL BE BROKEN TO PIECES; OUT OF HEAVEN HE SHALL THUNDER UPON THEM:THE LORD SHALL JUDGE THE EARTH; and he shall give strength unto his king, and exalt the horn (strength) OF HIS ANOINTED.”

Luke 1: 46-54:
“And Mary said, My soul hath rejoiced in God my Saviour.
For he hath regarded the low estate (lowly state) of his handmaiden (maidservant); for, behold, from henceforth (now on) all generations shall call me blessed.
For he that is mighty hath done to me great things; AND HOLY IS HIS NAME.
And HIS MERCY IS ON THEM that fear him FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION.
He hath shewed (shown) strength with his arm; he hath scattered the proud in the imaginations of their hearts.
He hath put down the mighty from their seats (thrones), and exalted them of a low degree (the lowly).
He hath filled the hungry with good things: and the rich he hath sent away empty.
he hath holpen (helpped) his servant Israel, IN REMEMBRANCE OF HIS MERCY;”
Remembering that love, next time….
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DOUBLE-EDGED PART 1 / LOVE, OR THE LACK THEREOF

MATTHEW 24:12: “And because iniquity (lawlessness) shall abound,the love of many shall wax (grow) cold.”
Love has surely grown cold in our world, family values and neighborly love and just the basic
natural response to protect those who are unable to protect themselves are all but forgotten by the
majority of the world.
Fulfilling Romans 1:31: “Without understanding, covenant breakers, WITHOUT NATURAL AFFECTION, (common decency and care for others) implacable ( UNFORGIVING)
UNMERCIFUL.”
We really don’t need to point this out but for sake of doing it right or for those who hadn’t thought about it, I will.
Domestic abuse has always been a blight upon earth, the number killer of women is men ( more women are murdered than die through accident or disease) animal abuse is just as appalling to God as any other kind of abuse.
Divorce rates are through the roof  with the next generation growing in one parent homes often with Mom’s who must work to support them and the family lives of all involved falls through the cracks of the need to survive, Father figures now lacking, no one to show the way often leads to following the wrong examples and walking the same wrong paths.
But now we also slaughter and sadistically slaughter unwanted babies to profit from their body parts.  
 Human sexual trafficking brings in billions and billions of dollars annually.
And you really have to ask yourself, who are theses people? The numbers of people networking this is just mind-boggling and it truly defies logic, that these acts which are so heinous and disturbing have become livelihoods for what has to be thousands and thousands of people.
It is enough to make the most gentle, love filled merciful heart be mighty tempted to turn to that same hate and as much as I hate to admit it (God knows it, he knows my heart better than I do) I wrestle with these issues and in some cases I truly have absolutely no sympathy for some of these monsters.
I do not believe they are human.
Humans sin,they make mistakes, but even the roughest person has some glimmer of hope, some shred of decency, or at the very least they are capable of loving their Mother or Grandma.
But THESE are THOSE already slated to slaughter by the double-edged sword of the absolute King of everything.
The  hardest aspect of the end time is trying to understand and get into our spirits WHO JESUS IS and to get it that love and I do mean get in to it,
and understand HIS LOVE and also understand how that it is  HIS LOVE that is bringing down the destruction of the entire world.
The greatest argument that fights the true Gospel is that God is love, and how could he level the people of earth and call forth the birds to take care of the dead bodies.
I hope this series will answer some of those questions.
We will review revelations from at the feet of the King.
We will really, really look at WHO HE REALLY IS, and biblically prove his character and the attributes of His Holiness.
We will look at others in scripture who got this and understood it and attempt to understand what true submission under the wings of God really is, sometimes we like to argue that we really are submitted to His will, but we often need to do a check baby on that.
Just how much of you are you willing to give him control over, how much of your body will you give as a vessel for His power and His glory to work through, just how willing are you to give yourself and all that you are, right down to the absolute baring of your soul in worship to him, regardless of who sees it or what they may think and whether or not they understand, ridicule or make you their poster child for all things they believe doesn’t exist.
The children of God are often Biblically referred to as “trees” and to get the idea on this, if you tap a tree what is inside is going to come out and  to SURVIVE these last days and to fulfill the mighty works of the Lord that are coming down, YOU HAVE TO HAVE THIS LOVE, or rather IT must have you, it is the merging.
It is the understanding and acceptance and being ONE WITH HIM.
I hope to hit a few different ways to break it down, but please continue with me, these will post over a period of three days and I truly hope when we are finished His love, His fire will be so consuming
and your desire to be consumed by Him will be so great and your understanding opened to the reasoning of the judgments, that you will never ever again question him as to why these things must come to pass.
As the “love of many grows cold” we lose sight of that love that never grows cold, never dies, and always prevails, which leads us to this condition that we MUST get a grip on and fast or we will lose the prize.
“Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee (something that hinders the relationship between God and the believer) BECAUSE THOU (you) HAVE LEFT (ABANDONED) THY (your) FIRST LOVE.”
The evilness and the state of the world and all the wickedness we are exposed to is the cause of leaving that love, so next time we’ll look at stoking that fire and rekindling that flame and laying back down at the feet of your King.
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